Compassion

Hmm... Well it has been a while. Yes indeed a while. I guess I have not been blogging because well I just have not been in the blogging mood. Depressed, a little bit you could say. Yet here I sit in a tall chair at the church listening to Melody, Drew, and Bethany play their lovely music. Sometimes I am envious of musically inclined people. Jealous you could say that they stuck to their dreams and I did not. But that was of my own account. Hmm... Dreams. I tend to not dream often, however, when I do it is mere day dreaming. I often dream about my future and what I wish (as if I could plan my future as if I was playing dolls with girls) it could hold for me. The American dream, a wife, 2 kids, and a big house. So I think about what life would be like if only it was so. Then I remember my fate and what the doctors tell me and I could scream. Very loudly at that. You know ( without throwing a pity party) I don't know why God has put such a heavy burden upon me. However, can it not be a blessing too. I must make something happen in my life, for the better of course. Education on ucd and so on and so on ect.
My great aunt took care of and old sick lady, only because her nephew (who lived right down the street refused to help. My aunt cared a lot for Rose ( that was the lady's name) and when she died it really hit my aunt hard. What kills me about this story is that they auctioned all of this lady's stuff off and no one wanted Roses pictures. So they were going to throw them all away in the dumpster out back. My aunt refused for this to happen of course and so in love for Rose my aunt took the pictures. My question is how could someone do such a thing. A human beings whole life and memories were in that box and they were just going to throw it away. Gone without a trace. As if she never existed is how they were going to let it all go. That breaks my heart. How?
Now on a more comforting note; the benefit for my family was awesome last night. There was a lot of money raised and it is really going to help my family. Thanks for your prayers and concern; but at this point everything is going good in my life.
with love,
Marcus G.