Humbled

Often I find myself being humbled by simple and very plain things in life. For instance, having to travel 200 miles to see doctor who can tell you everything about yourself. I guess I should not like the fact that other people know my body better than me but that is how it goes. I was humbled several times yesterday, let me tell you how.

Today while at the Hansens I had a very nice conversation with Drew. This does not happen often. You would think the opposite being that we spend half our days together. We began to talk about old friends who were at our old schools. I shared that though I often say I had no friends at school, I often lie. I had one friend named Dillon. We grew up together playing baseball and while all of the other jocks turned into jerks he stayed the same old Dillon. He and I shared several similarities including music. He came to the Disciple concert with me and he dominated the mosh pits.

I miss him sometimes when I think about school. I have not said a word to him since I left school. In fact the last thing I remember saying to him was "yes, I think I should go home schooled.

I then got this idea that all kids and adults at Boonville High were evil and were out to get me.
So for a while I hated them. However lately I have been humbled that people there have been wondering how I am doing, mind the fact that these were the people that I thought were out to get me. I do not know exactly how but that is what I thought. So recently people have been asking about me and I am starting to wonder if their intentions have changed, or if they themselves have been humbled themselves.

It was real interesting to see how God works in teaching us lessons. My family and I don't always get along in the best of ways. Most of the time it is my fault for letting my mouth run to much and saying stuff that I end up regretting. Last night Darin spoke of how family members have hearts too. That really hit home with me for the simple reason that I often say hurtful things to my family and them to me.

I guess that sometimes I get to thinking that since they are my family then they will truely understand that I do not mean the things that I say. However, they are human with feelings and emotions just like me. I know that when they say something hurtful to me I take offence to it and it "hurts my feelings." Unfortunately words can carry alot of weight on peoples shoulders, trust me on that. So I guess that you can say that I am learning to shut my trap and to watch what I say.

I was really humbled when I got home to the cozy home that is heated by a woodburner. I realized that my family is a good family and that though we go through a lot we are strong and we love each other.

Is your love really love,

Is my love really love,

I think our love isn't love

unless it is love to the end.

-As Cities Burn

Words

So recently I have been pondering upon what words I use and what they mean to me. For instance if I use a big word that I myself am not even sure what means, I think hmm what does that word mean, why is it a word, why can't people just say this, and stuff like that. Do not get me wrong I love words and I use them to my advantage any time I can, I have just been thinking about them alot. Weird thing to think about right? I guess, but, we use words everyday so I guess someone has to talk about them sometime.

Anyways, to what I want to talk about. Does anybody know how cuss words came about? I don't. However, lately I have been thinking, what would happen if every person just disregarded cuss words. What would our world be like. Seriosly, what if no one took offence or no one used them aiming toward harsh intentions? I think this world would be a better place.

On the other hand I think that it is just so stupid that a WORD can be bad. Whoever came up with that. Well, I thought that for a while, then I thought deeper, where do these words come from, you know, what is the source. Hate, or discontentment, or disregard to others feelings. I guess that it is sad but people must have made up "bad" words to call people. Nowadays we throw them around like they never had any meaning at all.

Then to my surprise some of our modernday curse words are words that actually do have a real meaning but I guess that somewhere along the line someone took it out of context and called someone or somthing that word and ever since it has been "bad."

I am sorry that you had to read such a crappy blog. I couldn't think of anything else to write so I wrote what was on my mind. Often what is on my mind is stupid and odd to hear. I will try not to write such lame blogs from now on.

Compassion

Hmm... Well it has been a while. Yes indeed a while. I guess I have not been blogging because well I just have not been in the blogging mood. Depressed, a little bit you could say. Yet here I sit in a tall chair at the church listening to Melody, Drew, and Bethany play their lovely music. Sometimes I am envious of musically inclined people. Jealous you could say that they stuck to their dreams and I did not. But that was of my own account. Hmm... Dreams. I tend to not dream often, however, when I do it is mere day dreaming. I often dream about my future and what I wish (as if I could plan my future as if I was playing dolls with girls) it could hold for me. The American dream, a wife, 2 kids, and a big house. So I think about what life would be like if only it was so. Then I remember my fate and what the doctors tell me and I could scream. Very loudly at that. You know ( without throwing a pity party) I don't know why God has put such a heavy burden upon me. However, can it not be a blessing too. I must make something happen in my life, for the better of course. Education on ucd and so on and so on ect.
My great aunt took care of and old sick lady, only because her nephew (who lived right down the street refused to help. My aunt cared a lot for Rose ( that was the lady's name) and when she died it really hit my aunt hard. What kills me about this story is that they auctioned all of this lady's stuff off and no one wanted Roses pictures. So they were going to throw them all away in the dumpster out back. My aunt refused for this to happen of course and so in love for Rose my aunt took the pictures. My question is how could someone do such a thing. A human beings whole life and memories were in that box and they were just going to throw it away. Gone without a trace. As if she never existed is how they were going to let it all go. That breaks my heart. How?
Now on a more comforting note; the benefit for my family was awesome last night. There was a lot of money raised and it is really going to help my family. Thanks for your prayers and concern; but at this point everything is going good in my life.
with love,
Marcus G.

Abortion

The sheer thought of writing my paper on something so disturbing is indescribably horrific. However unfortunate events result in unfortunate facts. It is the day that the complacency of ignorance gives way to the responsibility of knowledge. Abortion is wrong and there is no ethical explanation for why it is justified each and every day, each and every minute. My reasoning is not based on any religious bias or political belief, rather it is based the morality of humanity. Politicians lie and I am not fooled for they can not justify the homicidal clinics, the very crime scene where thousands of lives have been taken; stripped away from every human rights that we hold so dear to.

The question of whether or not abortion is right was asked to Presidential Cannadate Barak Hussain Obama. He responded saying "I am going to teach my daughters morals and values but if one were to slip up I don't want to punish them with a child." I don't know what kind of morals and values people usually instill in their children but I would like to think that murdering is not one of them.

Here comes the point in my paper where I let loose of all the horrific facts about abortion. The facts that the clinics, the government, and the media don't want you to know. Each day 4,000 innocent babies are killed from the reality of abortion. Can you bear the math? Each week over 25,000 babies have the most horrific crime committed to them. Furthermore 109,000 babies are killed each month, a crime hidden behind the name abortion. Each year 1.3 million babies are disposed of after what is suppose to be a simple procedure. Would it disturb you if I told you that 1/3 pregnancies end in abortion. Finally the worst of all since 1973 over 40 million babies have been aborted.

All of this may be surprising to you but it is the truth. Abortion ( still legally accepted) has killed more people than any other catastrophic event ever to occur in the United States of America. It may also surprise you that there is no debate when life of an embryo begins. Within the medical community they will tell you that life begins at conception.

At about 8 days after conception, the fertilized ovum implants in the lining of the uterus. It emits a chemical substance that weakens the mothers immune system. So that tiny body won't be rejected by the moms body. The body being fully alive and completely human is smaller than half an inch.

By the third week of pregnancy (about 21 days after fertilization) the heart begins to beat, pumping its own blood throughout the tiny human. The brain already haved formed, begins to divide into three sections, the fore brain, the mid brain and the hind brain. The same kind of brain and heart that you and I have, that of a human being.

During the next two weeks of pregnancy arms begin to form. The same arms that could throw a baseball, catch a football, or flex its muscles to brag about being strong. Also, legs begin to form, legs that could stand for the first time, holding and supporting its own weight. The same legs that could run a marathon for cancer patients or kick the base drum to the beat of a song in a famous band. Furthermore, the kidneys appear and the external part of the ear begins to portray from its head. Finally the baby's hands and wrist begin to form.

Beginning in the sixth week of the baby's life the brain emits waves that can be registered with an EEG. This is the way they determine if a baby is alive at birth. The heartbeat can now be heard with a special stethoscope. By this time the baby may be able to feel pain. Also, the bones begin to form.

At seven weeks of the pregnancy, startle responses are observed as well as female ovaries can be identified. By this time the embryos fingers and toes are separated. All these body parts are that of a human, a living being.

By the eighth week that the baby has been alive all of its internal organs have formed. About 90% of all structures found in an adult are now present on and in this human being. However the embryo is only about one and a half inch long. About 80% of 8 week old embryos demonstrate that they use their right hand dominantly over their left. The baby begins to demonstrate breathing motions (though there is no air present in the womb). Furthermore the kidneys begin to produce urine.

Now that you know that the creation of a human, baby, embryo, living being, or fetus (all the same of course) is an incredible process I want you to know this. It is the baby who initiates labor. The baby does this by stimulating the adrenal cortex, this releasing a hormone to cause the uterus to contract. It is the baby who decides the time to give birth.

It amazes me that anybody knowing this could possibly have an abortion. However, I do not think that any woman knowing what I just wrote would have this "simple procedure" done to the dependent fetus living inside her. I have read testimonies regarding women having had an abortion. They are not happy about it. Most struggle to carry on with their own life having known that they forbidded their child a chance in this world. They were lied to. Being told that having an abortion is an easy choice and that there is no shame in doing it.

The facts behind this are sad, depressing, and very heart breaking. I am a proud American, but not so proud of the things that go on in America. I am an American who thinks that murder is wrong and that abortion is homicide.

Note that in the last three hours of writing this paper over 500 babies were aborted.