"Oh Boy..."

Are we really this far in deep? Are we really at this point in our lives, again? It seems that the only good Darin did for us was to keep us from tearing each others heads off (not really all he did for us.) Really, a mediator? Have we really come to this, again, must I ask? Competition, rivalries, cliques, gossiping...? All these things seem to be exactly who we have become as a youth group. They describe it pretty well anyways. We are divided. Again. It seems like it took a huge event to break us from this past; reoccurring form of life. Is it true? Is all a youth minister good for is to mediate. To make us one. It is sickening that we put this drama on a youth pastors life at the job, life I guess would be just as true. Do we as brothers and sisters really need to deprave our lives at the church to the pulp, with all of this crap. From the outside it looks like a youth group that not even I want to attend. Maybe that is being a bit dramatic.

We are cliquish but we are all guilty. For one to accuse another of being a clique is just simply a condescending hypocrite. Which must I say, once again, we are all, in fact, guilty of it. I ask again, is a youth minister simply put in place to mediate. To bring together and unite. Is that it? I want so much more from the youth group that I attend, that I commune with, that I share with, and that I call my brothers and sisters, than to be just simply united. Someone once had the same vision that I sit here and write about. And he achieved it, he made it happen so to say. He didn't just sit back and see what arose from it. He dove in. He challenged, he walked his talk and talked his walk. If that makes any since. Are we so different as to hate.

This is all the more urgent, for you know how late it is, time is running out. Wake up, for our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. The night is almost gone; the day of salvation will soon be here. So remove your dark deeds like dirty clothes, and put on the shining armor of right living.

-Romans 13:11-12

The day is coming, soon, that we will be judged according to what we have done here on earth. (Not to say that actions get us to heaven.) For what we BELIEVED in. For what we LIVED our lives for, apart from all of this bickering and fighting and so on and and so on towards one another. I don't want to be stuck in this rut of judging, or hate, or opposition. I could go on.

Wow, a lot of that was dramatic. I apologize. I guess this is just another one of those random posts in which I rant and complain and offer up no solution. Like I said... OH Boy!!!